What's On My Heart

I can't believe it's already Friday! Boy, this week sure flew by. First off, I would like to say thanks to everyone who took the time to leave me a comment yesterday. I really appreciate all of you. Yesterday was a tough one. It actually turned out getting a lot worse (for other reason) before it got better, but thankfully today is a much better day. I am strenthened to know that I have some awesome blogging friends out there who are there when I need a shoulder to lean on.

After yesterday's post I got to thinking about several things aside from my little hat business. So many things have been going through my head this week. Thoughts of sick babies and thoughts of this ugly world we live in. We are seriously in a battle right now. A battle for good and evil. For the longest time, I struggled with being a "Closet Christian," as I've mentioned in the past. I was always afraid to let anyone know what I believed in for fear that I would be rejected for my faith. I have recently come to the understanding that I cannot go on any longer hiding who I really am from people for fear that they won't like me. One of the things I didn't mention on my 10 Things About Me list is the fact that I am a realist. I tend to be a pretty serious person, and not exactly what some might call "the life of the party." This is who I really am. I also pride myself in being open and honest with myself and others. What I have really come to appreciate about this blogging adventure is the freedom to be open and honest and the opportunity to just be real. There will be days when I am happy and days when I'm sad and I want to be able to share what's on my heart and be okay with that, regardless of what people will think. Again, I just want to be real.

One of the things I can't stand the most in this world is hypocracy. You know, when you see someone or something who says that they are one thing, and then acts another way. Hypocracy is what kept my Hubby and I from going to church for the longest time. We didn't want to be people living one way at home and then going to church pretending to be people we weren't. The devil tried to convince us that we were too dirty to enter into the Lord's house. And by dirty, I mean, not perfect...Saying a few ugly words here and there, drinking an alcoholic beverage every now and again. I am so glad that the Lord was there to gently remind us that we don't have to be perfect to enter into his House. What I've found to be amazing is God's sweet and gentle spirit. The closer you draw towards Him, the easier it becomes to start getting rid of all the "dirty" stuff.

At the end of the day, I don't want to be seen as a "religious" person. I just want to have a personal relationship with Him. And I want others to know Him as their Personal Savior too. I know this is heavy stuff for today, but I just wanted to share what's been on my heart. Just like the Matthew West song I heard on the radio the other day...I don't wanna go through the motions.

Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. We are planning on driving down to the Dodgers game tomorrow night. It's been a long time since we've gone on a little trip and done something together as a family. I'm really looking forward to it! Have a great weekend everybody!